Letters to Amelia: Tiny Baby

Amelia, remember when you where a teeny tiny baby?

You are all grown up now and just days away from your first birthday. WOAH.

I never thought I could be so lucky and so blessed as I am right now. Having a baby to take care of made me realize how much I was in need of something meaningful in my life. And there you came, quietly and so so beautiful to make out lives complete. Thank you for existing and for breathing and for being the amazing person that you are. You have taught me so much about life and my purpose here. I want to make you happy, so very happy every second of your existence and my heart is in so much pain when you cry and when your little body feels pain.

I don't ever want you to feel pain.

I love you

with every fiber of my being I love you so very much.

Happy way too early birthday baby.

Ps. Thank you boyfriend as well, you are and will always be my better half.

Olive juice.

;)

Letters to Amelia: I'm a mommy.

Dear baby:
Today we went out for brunch with grandma and grandpa to celebrate mother's day, but I could not get to actually eating my food but instead i just sat there looking at you. You are the reason why we were there in the first place. YOU made me a mommy.
I would have never imagined being a mommy so young but man oh man am I glad I am. Every day i'm  proud of you and of everything you brought along my way. You gave us a small little family to treasure and love for the rest of our days. You showed us how important it is to stick together no matter what and to be there for each other when we need it. We are a team now and we love it.
Thank you for teaching me how to be gentle and delicate again, and to forget about selfishness and help me focus on the important things. I love spending every second with you. I love you for turning me into a mother, a proud one.

Letters to Amelia

Amelia 2 months and a half.

Dear baby:
I never thought I'd love someone the way I love you. You are the single most important thing in my life and I'm glad you came to this world to change my perspective on things and to help me find my way. You have been a true blessing and I'm so excited to see you grow everyday it almost brings me to tears. You're growing up so fast it just breaks my heart that things are running by me and I can't stop and make every one of those moments last an entire lifetime. It's ok though, I'm also excited to see all of the things that are coming soon for us. Daddy is going to be with us soon and we can be a proper family. I know he is also sad he doesn't get to see all the things that are happening right now but soon enough he's going to be here for good and you'll be daddy's girl more so than you are now.

I'm so proud to be your mother and I always will.

I love you tons.

Mom.