Memos from my phone

I wrote this on a memo on my phone October 31st 2011 at 12:09am while i was supposed to be asleep:

"I feel lately like my emotions are bursting out of me and i can't even control them. Last week there were mayor meltdowns and fights accompanied by laughter and 'i love you's just hours after. I sometimes feel like i have a strong love for people in general and people around me but then something goes a little on the unexpected side and it seems like the end of the world to me. The thing is, it is really not and most of the time it takes me some time to realize it. Things might not go as i want them from time to time but at least they go and I still have the ones i love by my side and they are very supportive and caring.

I kept thinking about something I was told once in a random conversation. "If i am having problems with everyone maybe i might be the one doing things wrong" and I am.

Yes i am entitled to be frustrated and moody sometimes but the way i react is the thing that matters and its not always good. I really don't want Amelia to see and learn and imitate that behavior from me... and from anyone from that matter. I want her to be surrounded by happiness and joy and the only way i can give he that is by changing my attitude. It is obvious that we don't live in a bubble and sometimes things go wrong but for now i have to power to control what Amelia is exposed to, so for now I have to learn how to react and teach my baby that things like that are not really the end of the world and that everything will be ok as long as you have Love and Passion and a creative, positive mind. 

This will be the first of my advise to her and this are the words I want her to remember when she is feeling frustrated and sad:

And moreover, i would desire that ye should consider on the blessed and happy state of those that keep the commandments of god. For behold, they are blessed in all things, both temporal and spiritual; and if they hold out faithful to the end they are received into heaven, that thereby they may dwell with god in a state of never ending happiness. O remember, remember that these things are true; for the Lord God hath spoken it.

They sure work for me and i feel blessed to have found this great inspiration for life."

*I'm not really THAT religious but I feel it is important to believe and have faith and i would love to teach Amelia about that. Also, I find that scriptures can give you answers when you have true questions about life and are great when you need inspiration or a little push to have a wonderful day. They just make me want to be a better person*

Birthday Party Inspiration

This past week we had the luck to see our baby girl turn one and throw her a big birthday bash in the company of all of out closest friends and family (even Amelia's aunt and cousin were there via skype and we loved it) and it was quite an event. I really wanted to make it special, but i wanted it to be more about the company of our loved ones and make it cozy and warm than about the decoration. It was a private celebration with about 27 of our closest friends and family (we have a big family).- 

I never really cared for baby birthday parties before and i will probably tone it down in the future but the first birthday seems to me like SUCH a milestone i felt like i needed to go all out with the celebration. I initially started looking through Pinterest for inspiration but then i got all excited with it and felt like everything i saw i wanted and some of these things were waaaaay out of my crafting skills. Then, I proceeded to look through my embarrassingly big pdf folder of freebies and printables i've gathered over the years and saved up for special occasions and ended up frustrated and overwhelmed with everything (after all this is the first time I planed a) a whole party by myself and b) a baby party. )

*Its not like a had to plan it out all by myself, I did have a lot of people who offered to help but i was really particular about the things i wanted and i kind of had it planned out in my head 6 months ago so i decided to do it all. At the end I accepted some help because I didn't have enough time.*

Mini rant: (If you are not interested you can go ahead and scroll down to de pretty birthday inspiration)

I got this close to just throwing the towel and quitting but i felt really bad to not give my baby a special celebration as i know she deserves. So i kept going and it was not always easy and   just happy times (Thanks to me and my jhsdfgjhds mood) and tears of frustration were shed (again by me) and now looking back I think it was worth every second of it all.

It really was a happy moment for all of us and I'm glad we did it and i am really proud of myself for being strong and being patient and I don't think I have to apologize for my not.so.great.mood  because sometimes dealing with people is hard and sometimes you don't want to do it but sometimes you just HAVE to. You can't make those people go away. but what you can do is make de best out of the situation.

Now, getting back to the pretty pictures...

I'll try my best to link to every single source but some I don't know where I got, it's been several years since I started saving pdfs and pictures in my computer and sometimes its hard to keep up. If you happen to know where any of this images are from I would greatly appreciate if you inform me so I can link to the proper source.

1. Mini burgers fom The Appetizer Store

2. Party printables found at Hostess With The Mostess

3. Icre Cream Balloons from ?

4. Yummi treats from Party Bliss

1. Cake from Beyondbeyond.com.uk

2. Cake from ?

1. ?

2. Invitations from Beautiful Ordinary Day

3. D.I.Y stamps made out of a potato

4. Cake from ?

Printable we used on the invites from my favorite blog to get free stuff from. Eat Drink Chic is AMAZING! There is practically everything you might need to print/make yourself/craft for a special occasion or a special someone.

And of course the always handy, already made, easy to put together bunting template.

I really do have a lot of other pdfs and links to share with you, but boyfriend just got home from work and Amelia woke up so thats my call. I'll be sure to share later.

Absolute highlight of the week

Little Picasso finger painting.

Tiny vampire

This is what i get to see everyday. Smiling / laughing / giggling tiny vampire.

I'm really lucky.

Tah-Dah! You are 9 months old.

I am sad about seeing you grow up so fast but also really excited for the new things happening right now. You really know how to make us all laugh.

You dance to every song that's playing and dance even when we are in silence.

You wave every time someone says hi or goodbye.

You scream Mama or Papa when you are upset.

When someone asks you if you love them you shake your head saying no.

Greeting grandpa and dad everyday with excitement (cue heavy breathing, bouncing and moving arms up and down)

You laugh just to show your teeth because you know everyone thinks its adorable.

You like random T.V. commercials that have music on them and you stop doing whatever is keeping you busy at the time, open your little eyes and just stare.

Diaper change is starting to get really annoying for you. You'll kick and scream and turn around as soon as the pants are off.

You like drinking apple, pear and peach juice and refuse to have your formula during the day. Also, you like eating crackers, rice, bread, home made butternut squash soup courtesy of dear grandma, yogurt, and refuse to eat chicken or meat.

You still dislike bananas.

You are having a hard time with strangers and demand to be attached to my hipbone for the first 5 to 10 minutes.

You like our little dance parties.

Bath time with daddy is fun until you get out of the water and have to be dressed. Oh, the drama.

You went from sleeping all night to waking up 2 times. Thankfully you drink your bottle half asleep (You should get some sort of badge/price for that) and go right back to sleep.

You officially can't be left alone for more than 1.5 seconds.

My guess is that all that juice you have (8 ounces though out the morning + 4 in the afternoon + 2 around 4 or 5 pm) is making you hyper because you like laughing 24/7 and can't stay still.

You are curious about eyes and feet and tattoos.

You know how to take out the wipes and can't get enough of that.

Still HATE the doctor.

Love spending the weekends with daddy. 

Up to last week you showed no sings of wanting to crawl. Instead you just liked being standing up with grown-up's help and would get in a terrible mood if someone tried to sit you back down.

This week though, you are becoming better at pushing yourself forward and staying face down longer. 

You are more confident and curious.

When you get asked 'guess who is here' you understand that someone just arrived and look immediately to the door waiting for someone to show up.

You like Marilyn Monroe and Audrey Hepburn, Angelina Ballerina, Milly and Molly, Edward Shape and the magnetic zeroes (way too much if you ask me) and Sponge bob's credit song.

Still like mirrors and laugh staring at yourself when we pass by one.

So for all this reasons and much much more baby, we are proud of you and can't wait to see you grow up just as pretty as you are now.

Happy 9 months Baby A!

Party

Yesterday was a success. Amelia got invited to her first birthday party. It was her cousin's party. He turned 7. The party was great but baby A stole the show.

Everyone had they star wars costume on but I think this little guy didn't got that memo. Here is something I never thought I'd see. Batman holding a light-saber. He is also hiding from me because I chased him down a good 15 minutes trying to get a picture of him. I think I might have freaked him out because at the end whenever he saw me he would just ran away.

At was just a good day.

Food Fail

This food fail (Amelia's first attempt at solid food) is brought to you by: Clueless mom and i'm-not-eating-whatever-that-gross-looking-thing-is baby

ENJOY!

My First Internet "Words"

Amelia wrote something for the very first time this week, i think that we might have a little blogger within us.

(btw. skype dates are AWESOME)